Good night kiss

Barak teaches me so much about my relationship with my Heavenly Father. I have this book idea about some to the different aspects of the first year of his life I am considering putting into my laptop.

Tonight was something special...
Tuesday, I had to discipline him for something he did at preschool. He clearly knew what he did was wrong and knew of my disapproval. All week he seems to have been a little distant with me. I think Misty thinks I am looking to much into it but I really think he has been a bit mad at me. The fact that he is 1 1/2 years old may play a factor into this, but this is my feelings and my blog so lay off.

I was putting him in bed tonight. As soon as we walk into his room, he placed his head on my shoulder. I am loving the moment, standing there rocking my boy on my shoulder. I am not the manliest of all men nor am I a sissy boy. But, this moment will bring any man to at least a lump in his throat.

Then it happened...
Barak lifts his head from my shoulder, kisses me on the lips and goes back down to the shoulder. In a moment of no verbal communication, I think we had a beautiful conversation. It was as if Barak forgave me for needing to discipline him and we are now on good terms.

God disciplines out of necessity not spitefulness. Just like there is no part of me that wishes to hurt Barak in any way, however, I realize that in order for him to be all that he can be, I must instill certain values in him and let them run free. I think this is a lot the same with God. He never just decides to pick on us to be mean. He never disciplines without reason.

I love Him because He desires the best out of me.
This means at times course corrections.

Heart and Soul
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